Below are the 11 most recent journal entries recorded in pink_anarchy's LiveJournal:

Thursday, September 2nd, 2004
1:13 pm	Liars and deceivers. A hurricane is coming this way. 140 mph and counting. It will devastate the island and possibly murder many. It is said...that its gonna be the most devastating in all the history of the Bahamas. I love my room now. The windows are closed with the metallic shutters. It's black..even in broad daylight. It's the same with my house. It's gonna be 3 days of beautiful obscurity. Freedom. Insanity. I love small places. Call it reverse-claustrophobia. I feel far safer here than out there. Like I'm finally in control of myself. What emmanates from this? Fearlessness. I am also full of anger. Energy. Some people fear the dark. For me, it regenerates me. Empowers me. Only 10 minutes left ... 3 days of no electricity and no water follows next. If I make it through this level 4 hurricane. Good. If not. Don't worry. I'm not that important anyway. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
4:10 pm	Rational Delusions Been working on my project for a couple of days. The songs are taking shape. Going definitly industrial with a hint of darkwave influence. My anger...more evident in the lyrics, is a clear reflection of my thoughts on love, idiocity..cruelty and self-destruction. I got my hands on that imperative reaction cd i wanted so badly. How good is it? The. Best. Industrial. CD. Of. The. Fucking. Year. I'm planning on getting myself a domain. Not only to let you lucky bastards download entire albums from my fav bands.. but to show you guys my mediocre skills with electronic music. And and and ....here's the kicker. I have ...12 cds with every fucking Sailor Moon episode. What does it mean? You'll be able to download them all. Happy? You should be. (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 11th, 2004
9:27 pm	Dammit ( I changed again ) As you might have noticed, I've changed again. I'm angrier. More destructive..and intellectually starved. I believe I can make a difference. I've tasted apathy. Uncertainty. Insecurity. Undecisiveness. And the rest of the emo-teenie useless bullshit. I'm honest. Up-front..and I'm no longer ashamed. I have nothing to be ashamed of. I have nothing to hide. I've defined my goals. I will stand for honesty. No matter how long and solitary the path will be. For it has brought me something self-critisism and self-humiliation never brought me: Self-fulfillment. Want to know what's the best thing? I'm free. This is who I am. I'm done with wasting time. Sudden change of ideals. I retired from a 3+ year-old habbit (RP). Now, I'm writting essays. Coming up with ideas. Exploiting my potential as far as I can. If I fail... At least I tried? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 4th, 2004
12:24 am	Agno - stick Take the quiz: "WHAT RELIGION BESTS SUITS YOU?" Agnostic You've probably studied loads of different religions, but you're just not sure if any of it is true. Evolution makes some sense to you, but it doesn't satisfy you. Lastly, your personality is one of question, but you won't go out of your way to find -The Truth- It's more of a hobby. They didnt have the time to add eclectic pagan or chaotic. Oh well, it's still pretty good ^_^ Not like you care, anyway. (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 3rd, 2004
4:21 pm	Angrier Well, my day was going fine. I suppose things are finally deteriorating between Miggy and I. This is an obvious step I was expecting, not only because life goes on for the both us as we go different ways, but we meet other people...for example her and that beloved Meko-punk of hers. Ooops sorry, see how angry I can get? ..I just called someone I didnt know, a "punk" -tap taps her own hands- bad girl, bad girl! The more I think of the last 8 months, the more I realize how masochistic I can be in a relationship. So desperate to be in love, that I would go to accept the tresspassings of someone who barely respects me. As life hit me harder everyday, I felt the air telling me "...You are fooling yourself with this "perfect love" you will regret everything later". Aren't fatalistic thoughts the darndest thing? Half-discussions about Martin and our interactions prove that the mutual attention of each other decreased. It's like watching a beautiful rose wither to dust. All those dreams I had of being with her, died. They were butchered in the great sea of her lies. Love still exists. Jealousy is striving to get the best of me. But anger is going to conquer all. Hatred will consume this dense forest of complicated emotions..and when all that is left are ashes...they will scatter in the wind...leaving me with nothing but emptiness. No more paradise I constructed with dreams and bubbles in the name of love. I only wish I could burn memories as well. (Comment on this)
Friday, July 2nd, 2004
7:58 pm	Muzik, RP and Gaia Yes. My baby has a name now ^_^ Absent Halo. That is the name for my musical project. All my songs will be written under that name. I've shown a couple of my samples and I've been receiving some good feedback. I have already 13 different tracks and a remix. I promise to get my dad to buy me a domain so you guys can listen some of my stuff. Where the hell did I come up with that? 1) It just sounds cool 2) It's catchy and easy to remember 3) To me, ... it means the hidden part of ourselves. What we produce when our halo dissapears, leaving us, the way we are...without the decoration and the luminity that is our faith. I suppose it's a reflection of my shameless godless over-all attitude. Well...enough teenie pseudo-philosophy. Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: Absent Halo - Sanctity (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 20th, 2004
6:28 am	And what i'm frightened of..is that they call it "God's love".. Woke up around 8 or so and celebrated father's day. My daddy is sho cool ^_^ Wuvs my daddy. I know not many families are together today, so I tried to make the best of it. I'm fortunate to have parents that still love each other.. Yes...lucky me ^^ More than 50% of american families are torn apart by such things as divorce. Well...on another note, I "torrented" the new bad religion album. I'm in love with a song called "God's love". Basically talks about human suffering, injustice and our indifference masqueraded as religious propaganda. On another note, last night.. I was given a pill that makes me hilariously dizzy and flirty. Yes, I become worse than a drunk whore under those chemicals. This morning, I checked what i said to Miggy (8-month relationship break-up) and I almost flipped. ...Want a hint? delusional_shadow (10:41:36 PM): I'll trade you my panties! sailor_rhea (10:42:01 PM): Dan.. delusional_shadow (10:42:38 PM): -huggles- it's hard not thinking of you... delusional_shadow (10:43:30 PM): Wel! Youre here ^^ so...uhm..yuh. No more sadness ^_^ sailor_rhea (10:43:55 PM): u.u sure.. delusional_shadow (10:44:12 PM): -snuggles- delusional_shadow (10:44:14 PM): Yuh! delusional_shadow (10:44:22 PM): Smile ;-; delusional_shadow (10:44:32 PM): I like being around you... sailor_rhea (10:45:02 PM): Really? delusional_shadow (10:45:14 PM): Yush ^^ delusional_shadow (10:46:32 PM): Why do you think I would have chosen to be your Taru delusional_shadow (10:46:37 PM): Your taru! sailor_rhea (10:46:56 PM): n.n; delusional_shadow (10:48:40 PM): -hops on her lap- delusional_shadow (10:48:43 PM): Boo! sailor_rhea (10:49:12 PM): ^_^; You're in a good mood.. delusional_shadow (10:50:16 PM): Yup ^^ delusional_shadow (10:50:36 PM): Exited to RP soon. sailor_rhea (10:52:07 PM): Glad to hear it. ^-^ delusional_shadow (10:54:04 PM): -offers pantiies anyway and thrpws em against a wall- sailor_rhea (10:54:45 PM): o.O Exactly how much sleep have you gotten in the past twenty four hours? delusional_shadow (10:54:58 PM): None. sailor_rhea (10:55:10 PM): You know what I'm going to say. delusional_shadow (10:55:29 PM): That im sweet and lovable? o.< delusional_shadow (10:55:31 PM): ^^ delusional_shadow (10:55:35 PM): -giggle- sailor_rhea (10:55:48 PM): -points- o_o Bed.. delusional_shadow (10:56:57 PM): -Giggles and licks- prepare for drunk rebelllion!! sailor_rhea (10:59:19 PM): o.O Bed.. delusional_shadow (10:59:50 PM): Okay., fine! we surrender. You may kinky-punihsh me ^_^ sailor_rhea (11:00:17 PM): you're hopeless u.u delusional_shadow (11:00:54 PM): but you wuv me! sailor_rhea (11:01:07 PM): Of course. delusional_shadow (11:02:03 PM): Alright ..you wun. ...See the spelling? See my whore-like attitude? I could have half of Ayenee tell me how much of a hypocrite I am. Had I been conscious, I would have NEVER said any of that. god.. I wanna splat.. ;-; Current Mood: confused Current Music: Bad Religion - God's love (Comment on this)
Friday, June 18th, 2004
11:32 am	We are professionals, ok?! OK! ( Read this if you have time to burn ) This is a transcript! Yesh! A memorable transcript with this friend of mine called MeGaN. It is to prove that we are proffessionals in the notable art of teen drama. delusional_shadow: How's stuff? frail_orchid: Its fine.....oo I think delusional_shadow: Is it? Did you ask it? frail_orchid: Of course it always seems fine before it falls apart frail_orchid: oO yeah i saw it this morning frail_orchid: oo it nodded that it was ok delusional_shadow: ..I heard it was going out....with ...what's-his-face.. frail_orchid: Yeah....but what's-his-face is all upset today because it was being mean delusional_shadow: Really? o.o;...Was stuff cheating again? frail_orchid: Yeah ......stuff is always cheating >< that whore delusional_shadow: I so knew it! frail_orchid: And you know who stuff is cheating with? delusional_shadow: Who who? frail_orchid: That delusional_shadow: ...No... frail_orchid: Yep delusional_shadow: Omg.. frail_orchid: I know! delusional_shadow: I was so not expecting ... not...that. delusional_shadow: Oh god.. frail_orchid: Its horrid isn't it? delusional_shadow: I'm so gonna tell .. delusional_shadow: no more reputation.. frail_orchid: All respect flies out the door..... frail_orchid: oo delusional_shadow: Absolutly. delusional_shadow: I feel so betrayed... frail_orchid: Yeah......I thought that stuff would have at least told you of all people delusional_shadow: I know! delusional_shadow: ;-; frail_orchid: I didn't find out until I was walking with this to the library and saw stuff and that making out by the bushes delusional_shadow: ....O_O... delusional_shadow: I need an advil... frail_orchid: XD delusional_shadow: ..You know...I think we're pretty good at this teen drama-thing. frail_orchid: oo yeah.....we are experts Current Mood: confused Current Music: Fear Factory - Human Shields (Comment on this)
10:56 am	...What in the fuck? (Supermario on crack) I just saw this thing. It's so damned hilarious.. http://www.videogamedc.com/ They have a collection of parodies. Basically laughing at all the stuff nintendo makes. Must-sees are: Rise Of the Mushroom kingdom ( Part 1 = http://www.videogamedc.com/Pixeled_Parodies/Rise_Of_The_Mushroom_Kingdom/rise_of_the_mushroom_kingdom.html Part 2 = http://www.videogamedc.com/Pixeled_Parodies/Rise_Of_The_Mushroom_Kingdom_2/rise_of_the_mushroom_kingdom_2.html ) Mario VS Sonic ( http://www.videogamedc.com/Pixeled_Parodies/Mario_Vs__Sonic/mario_vs__sonic.html ) Yoshi's island 2 ( http://www.videogamedc.com/Pixeled_Parodies/Yoshi_s_Island_2/yoshi_s_island_2.html ) Seriously. Whoever made these is a genius...some others are kind corny but...yeah..those are definitly worth it. (Comment on this)
7:23 am	Ryn and Ryn o.o; Yush people. Two Ryns! Are you high and seeing double? Nope ^_^ You're as sane as me (..That's not a very good thing, but whatever ) For differentiation purposes I shall post a couple of stats for both of em: Ryn / TaRyn = -Met on Gaia couple months ago through a support thread for people with my condition. -Common background regarding personal experience. -Really nice (And i mean it! She's adorable) -Introduced me to happy hardcore music, which usually makes my head spin a little..but I dance to it in secret (But shh! o.< It's a secret, right? ) -Wrote this cool fanfic that makes people cry. Ryn / Ryn-chan / Kati = -Met her on Yahoo SMRP... almost 3 years ago? (Her and I go waaaaaay back) -Writes awesome SM fics that make me wanna RP so badly ;-;! -We're sisters in DDR-ism, Silent Hill-ism, Sonic-ism, ..and other -isms... -She'll whoop yer ass in T1 (Ph3ar teh powah of her Elana character!) -She's like... one of the three leaders of the DS clan (..Yup, she's the boss, she even taught me how to bring her coffee and pancakes in the morning -Maku crazy sigh- ^_^;; ) So yeah! Now you know the difference 'tween these two badass gals. I shall reffer the first Ryn as Taryn. And the second as ... Ryn-chan. ^_^ Ok? "Thank you for your attention, we now bring you back to your originally broadcasted Jay-z song." Current Mood: confused Current Music: Fear Factory - Default Judgement (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 17th, 2004
3:59 pm	Hello world. Alright! Here we go again. Pink Anarchy, yup..can't get any more serious than that, huh? First thing to do in here is thank Taryn for her inspiration and motivating me to get an LJ. Ok! That done, let's start with the raw basics. Yes. I'm a transexual. Yes. I'm bisexual. Yes. I'm a crossdresser. Yes. I'm an eclectic pagan. Yes. I'm a musician. Yes. I'm usually cynical. Yes. I'm pro-choice. Yes. I'm a libertarian. Yes. I'm a feminist. Yes. I'm a vegetarian. There. Now that we got those labels cleared, you may think of something more creative than "Fag" whenever you wanna go ahead and insult me. ^_^ Current Mood: confused Current Music: Fear Factory - Corporate Cloning (6 Comments |Comment on this)